Thursday, August 20, 2015

A Snake in the Hand




















Photo: (c) Jamie K. Reaser


My parents decapitated every snake
they saw. I remember watching severed
heads and severed bodies writhing,

separately,

in the grass. The mouth would open and
close, open and close. It was pink inside.
Maybe, black.

When I was old enough to read field guides,
my parents got in trouble. Big trouble.
According to the books, there were no
venomous snakes where we lived. None.
Every single species was harmless. Actually,
they did good things.

I was not happy.

I laid down the law. “You aren’t allowed to
kill any more snakes!” My declaration was
non-negotiable and backed by facts. Plenty.

That was the day that I learned to stop
trusting everything adults said and did.

The next snake that I encountered was
a garter snake – a large female. I reached
down and picked her up, gently placing the
fingers of my right hand behind her narrow
head and supporting her sleek body with
my left hand, just like the books said to do.
Then, I went to find my parents.

I was told that ‘it’ was not coming into the
house. Ever. But, I was given a playpen-sized
box that an appliance had arrived in earlier
that week.

The snake and I spent most of that day
on the back patio in that box with grass
that I pulled and worms that I caught.
She ate a big one. It was still wriggling
when it disappeared into the universe
inside her.

I learned a lot about snakes that day,
like how easy they are to love.

I let her go.

And, the next day, I went down to the
brook that ran patiently behind the house
– Harrison Brook –
where I knew northern watersnakes
lived in holes at the top of clay banks.

I waded in waist deep, causing water
to separate at my left hip and embrace
me before flowing onward, and waited for
them to swim by – going to or from their
streamside apartments. When they came
my way, swimming, I’d put my hands in the
water under their long undulating bellies
and gently lift them up. Then, I’d get
bitten. It never hurt much, but it did
draw blood. Sometimes.

I did this again and again, until they
trusted my particular touch. Then, I’d sit
with one or two on the sandy shoal at
the turn in the creek and just look at them
and talk to them. I think they said things
to me too, but I don’t remember
what, exactly.

All demons can be befriended this way.

The snake in my hand, right now, is a lovely
ringneck, steel gray with a golden belly and
collar. She’s silky smooth and elegant,
looped around my thumb and forefinger.

I relate to scales in much the same way that
religious people relate to beads. Holding her
is an act of prayer. But, what is the
prayer? This is my question. I think that it is
a good one.

I think, perhaps, I’m still praying for those
decapitated snakes. Or, maybe, I’m praying
for people. Decades have passed. I’m still
clear about who is harmless. But, it seems,
much of the world is not.




© 2015/Jamie K. Reaser
From "Wonderment: New and Selected Poems"

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Wednesday, August 19, 2015

This Morning
















Photo: (c) Jamie K. Reaser


This morning I walked
in the rain like it was something
that I was born into,

joy and pleasure falling
onto my skin from dark clouds
that kept departing the
horizon for some place
else,

for someone else’s story.
Not mine. Everything was so
happy! Puddles, leaves, white
flowers, and a robin hatched this
year who was finding his
particular voice at the top of
a snag.

I was soaking wet.

It was a good way to start the day.


© 2015/Jamie K. Reaser 
From "Coming Home: Learning to Actively Love this World"
A work in progress

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Monday, August 17, 2015

Sunlight Streaming




















Photo: (c) Jamie K. Reaser


This morning
the sunlight said things
to me like, “Here. Come
here!” It pointed the way
saying, “Slowly and with
great joy.” It went on with,
“There is something around
this bend in the road just
for you.” I wanted to
hesitate. I know about changes
in direction. You might have
experienced a few yourself.
But, I kept going. And, the leafy green
trees around me were happy, and the gravel
below my feet was very happy. It made
sounds as I walked. And, there it was!
There around the corner
was the road ahead.
That is all.
The road ahead.
And, for the first time ever, I knew,
without doubt,
that was the road for me
to follow.

And, I took the next step. It was my own.


© 2015/Jamie K. Reaser
From "Coming Home: Learning to Actively Love this World"
A work in progress

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Friday, July 10, 2015

What Breaks Your Heart?




















Photo: (c) Jamie K. Reaser


What breaks your heart so completely
that the entire world can fall in?
This is what I want to know.
This is what would give me hope:

You, finding the answer.



© 2015/Jamie K. Reaser
From: Coming Home: Learning to Actively Love this World
A work in progress

Saturday, June 6, 2015

Dwelling
















Photo: (c) Jamie K. Reaser

Can you dwell on something that you pass
on by daily, never linger to know, and find the
beauty in it? That is what this tired world needs
now. Attentiveness and awe. Just devote yourself
to something small and simple. Take your time.
Go slowly. There’s no need to make a fuss about
it. We’ve had enough of that.


© 2015/Jamie K. Reaser
From "Coming Home: Learning to Actively Love this World" (a work in progress)

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Tuesday, May 5, 2015

Returning
















Photo: (c) Jamie K. Reaser


The catbirds have returned from their winter wherevers. They
are attitude in the thickets, claiming themselves, claiming 
territory, rambling on about a wide variety of things that are so 
very important to them, it would seem. I love them, how and 
when they show up like this and change a place - make it both 
more known and more mysterious. Oh, how I delight in these 
simple wonders that will rip your heart wide open if you let 
life in. I’m a mess every spring – torn apart, remembering my 
humanness. Returning.



© 2015/Jamie K. Reaser

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