Fireflies

Photo: (c) Jamie K. Reaser

The dusks of humid summer days

have a magic about them

called fireflies.

Watch them blinking above the long grasses

and in the dark woodland.

Catch one, gently.

Hold it in the cup of your hand

and let it tickle-walk across your

palm, all six legs striding, until it can’t bear

the tangible for one second more and spreads its beetle-

wings and becomes – how high can it go? -  a star.

Now you are back in your childhood,

aren’t you? And the glass jar is big

and has a metal lid. Probably, red.

It once held peanut butter,

and it makes a particular sound when you

open and close it. Do you hear it?

I remember what it felt like to spin the top on,

and spin the top off, and how you had

to be fast to get one in and not let the others out.

Back then,

Did you ever imagine all the things that

a single jar could hold?

Mine has in it the voices of the other kids,

and their mothers calling them in.

Cars going down the street,

dogs barking,

lawn mowers falling silent for the night,

Illusions that I thought were truths at the time.

And yellow. Luminescent yellow.

“Come and be my lover,” they said

“Go away! You scare me,” they said.

I adored them and adore them still.  

They taught me how to ask questions.

They taught me how to get silent enough 
to hear answers.

And,

They taught me how to be with things that go on
in this world beyond our understanding.                                                          

How often the child of me

has saved the adult of me,

because she can remember fireflies.

~ Jamie K. Reaser, Author
Published in "Coming Home: Learning to Actively Love this World" 


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